I thank any of you who read my blog at all for understanding my recent departure. A month ago I left (and returned! 😀 ) on a crazy journey to see my family at a time that was very hard for them. It was not an easy trip and it was one I didn’t entirely want to make. My grandfather truly meant a lot to me and I am still grieving for him deeply. I am not letting it impact my work but it has impacted my life away from the office. I am finally getting re-settled into life and I am gladly on my way. Thank you for understanding and any prayers you might have said. I am having a mass said for my grandfather on December 8, 2011. This will be three months since his passing. I will also be looking for other masses I can scoop up for his soul.
Life as we know it can be pretty strange. Prior to my grandfather’s passing I had been in a really poor spot spiritually. I didn’t feel like I could pray, I felt isolated from within my Catholic parish, and I was battling with some tough depression. Even though I was battling this, I found it helpful to keep reminding myself of the main tenants of the Catholic Faith. The short version of this is the Nicene Creed.
I believe in one God,
the Father almighty,
maker of heaven and earth,
of all things visible and invisible.
I believe in one Lord Jesus Christ,
the Only Begotten Son of God,
born of the Father before all ages.
God from God, Light from Light,
true God from true God,
begotten, not made, consubstantial with the Father;
through him all things were made.
For us men and for our salvation
he came down from heaven,
and by the Holy Spirit was incarnate of the Virgin Mary,
and became man.
For our sake he was crucified under Pontius Pilate,
he suffered death and was buried,
and rose again on the third day
in accordance with the Scriptures.
He ascended into heaven
and is seated at the right hand of the Father.
He will come again in glory
to judge the living and the dead
and his kingdom will have no end.
I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Lord, the giver of life,
who proceeds from the Father and the Son,
who with the Father and the Son is adored and glorified,
who has spoken through the prophets.
I believe in one, holy, catholic and apostolic Church.
I confess one Baptism for the forgiveness of sins
and I look forward to the resurrection of the dead
and the life of the world to come. Amen
Nicene Creed from the Roman Missal v3 2011
I use the “new” version of the Creed because of what I bolded. I believe. My faith is my own and I can’t deny that. I will be held responsible for myself and I am glad that I have a faith that allows me to learn and grow. Just because I don’t like something or I don’t understand doesn’t mean I cast it off, I work with it and learn from it. I wrestle with it like Jacob wrestled with God. I just get off my backside and work with it.
As a responsible Catholic we look at what we believe and why the church teaches it. The Church is our loving guiding parent and we are the annoying 6 year old.
Parent: “Don’t do that, you will get hurt.”
P: “It’s not safe.”
P: “It will put you in danger.”
The dialogue continues but it doesn’t end with the parent getting mad and saying “Because I said so that’s why!” It never ends. There are countless resources and accounts that detail why things are the way they are, if we take the time to look at them. A good Catholic doesn’t follow the masses, they choose to delve deeper into their faith and learn. Whether it starts by saying a new prayer, watching religious programming on EWTN, volunteering in their local parish, or reading every book they can get their hands on, they take the time to work on their faith.
Today in my credo (creed), I believe that God is present and active in my life. I choose to follow and I choose my obedience to God, the Church, my husband and family, my employers, and myself. Even if in that obedience, I choose to go home sick to take care of myself.